Some Pics from my Vivitar 3000s-unfortunely deceased!/My new used Chinon film camera

Chinon

Some Sweet Vibes!!!!!!

Letting GO!!!!

As Shabbat aproaches today I am thinking about flow. I have always strove for a schedule for order for a better way. There is always a better way, and what ever is, is never enough. Never enough, I think these words are talking about value. As I have struggled in these last couple of months to keep it together when I have felt my strength wane and escape me like a river taking it's course. I have been on the opposite side of the road, a place where I have no choice but to cease from my striving. Accept what is and let go.Let go because I can't hold it and control everything, let go because I am tired. I have had to relinquish control and just BE. Be at a place of Grace and Space! Give myself time to feel, to deal, a time
to heal.

Have you given yourself that time??? That Grace and Space! And as I ponder the REST I am to enter this evening I long to truly REST. I long to release and let go. I can't do it and honestly I am not good at it all. And that is okay.

I am open to surprises, I am open Abba I am open.
What do you do when you can no longer push? Or carry? Or hold it in?

You let go, you let G-D!

What have you not grieved? What have you not let yourself feel?

Let go, let G-D!

Does this mean you will wake up tomorrow and it will be gone, NO sorry it's not like that. Letting go and letting G-D does not mean that you don't have to engage. But engaging and controlling two different things.

Will you join me? I am learning myself to let go, to let out!!! To BE.

Would you share in the comment box how you have let go? Let G-D??

What has it been like for you???

Has it felt like the death of dreams? Or like your giving up??

Please share your story, I am interested in learning and knowing.

Xoxoxoxo
Angelique

What I'm listening to......

MIA!!!!!

So dear friends, I have MIA for a while. First, for me is this terrible Seasonal Affective Disorder it's kicking my butt. I thought it was a load of you know what!!! But as usual we judge things we don't know first hand, the human plight!!! So for that last 4 weeks it has been pretty bad for me. And the last thing on my mind is blogging. LOL But I will catch you up on the happenings!! Ready???


My beloved sister bought me a film camera online. I love at first sight, I had the jones for a film camera. There is nothing like the sound and the click. Out of 3 cameras one worked. Then the iso dial broke on that one and to my dismay not worth fixing. I actually cried out of frustration. Yeah, Yeah like a baby and!!!!LOL Then I also found out that one lense has mold and another no good. That was enough. So I was able to get a used Chinon ce-5 which is doing good!!! And it came with a 6 month warranty. And so now my new baby is ready for some adventure.



Then next,

Okay so my Babe took us to see Avatar. It was a great movie and cool message. Yes, it had all other sorts of messages. But over all it was good. It was really big on connection and while my beliefs are different I agree with the idea that we are connected and we must honor that fact. Thus the idea that in everything dwells a spark and essence of HaShem and I agree.
Now, New Moon.... here's my story. I saw Twilight a while ago and like it very much!!! Yes, Yes it is very adolescent of me and much more.... Moving on. And so I wanted to see New Moon because it looked interesting and I wanted to know what happens next. In the process I thought about buying the books but couldn't bring myself to it. But the night we went to see Avatar I decided why not finally see New Moon. And so ladybug and I went. Well , what the heck was that the end left me hanging. I am a need to know person and I couldn't wait for the next movie to see what is going to happen. So I bought Eclipse and Breaking Dawn the next day. Spent 2 days straight reading!!! Yes, I have lost my mind!!!! What can I tell you..... Then I bought the first two books and well I can't wait for the movie Eclipse. I take full responsibility for the fact that I have fallen prey to a fad. One intended for teens. And what can I tell you. It is what it is!!!!




Then......For my bday which is coming soon Feb. 6 I will be 34!!!! Boiy oh boiy!! Anyhoo my Babe bought me a laptop.....How sweet....Now you guys know that mine crashed along with all my info...... And I never faced it!!!!! I was in utter shock literally....In all my years with this man there is nothing he hasn't given me. And it's not that "I'm an expensive chick" thing he has always spoiled me at least that's what I call it. And again he surprised me nothing but the cherry on a cake!!! Soooo... Now I can blog and do all my good stuff on my own computer , YAY. Yes, I am going to get one of those back up things!!!!





Last but not least the present day.... things are looking up now. We had a bday my son's 13... I'll post more about that latter. And then 5 htp that I am taking that has been helpful with the
S.A.D but I will post about that on my herbal blog.


soo... I look forward to sharing more........

Blogcamp pics

Here is 8-13, I am really enjoying consciously taking pictures each day. What is such a blessing to me is the stopping to notice, to see truly the world around me. The different way HaShem has granted me the privilege to SEE. And also to take things and look for their possibilities as in the picture with the necklace. Can you see a story??? Perspective is powerful and often of our making. Thus it requires us to be mindful...... I hope you are enjoying seeing through my eyes the possibilities of the world my family and I live in. Akeret HaBayit in Training is also sharing what she sees and it's possibilities. If you'd like to post a comment with a picture of your world and it's possibilities feel free!!!!

The Simple Woman's Daybook

FOR TODAY 11 de Diciembre del 2010...

Outside My Window...
A blue sky and a partially frozen crick (creek)

I am thinking...
Of signing my kids up for 4h and girl and boy scouts, I think there are some thing they can learn from these experiences. But It's a thought that needs more research. I am not a fan of peer oriented stuff but lets see.

I am thankful for...
For the warmth of a HOME.

From the learning rooms...
Slow and steady wins the race, is something I need to remind myself.

From the kitchen...
Well, I finally made the bread now I need to clean my kitchen it's due for a big clean. Also I need to sit down and make a list of what we eat and buy to work out how to replace that stuff with local and sustainable. I realized there is still choice between local or organic and your blessed if you find locally organic. But this thing of groceries and or food needs changes anyway so I will see how this will be worked out. But let's see.

I am wearing...
A white t-shirt and my homemade jean skirt which is my favorite item of clothing in my closet right now. LOL

I am creating...
Journal pages, going to make another jean skirt b/c I am wasting this one down. Also I want to make some earrings with cool words.

I am going...
To take a new toy to get checked out, my sister bought me a birthday gift that blows the mind. 3 35mm film cameras with lenses I am so siked I don't know what to do. But one of them is having trouble so I need to take it to get checked out. I hope it's nothing big!!!!


I am reading...
A journal of solitude by May Sarton, Thirst by Mary Oliver, and some fiction book I picked up for 2.00 I rarely read fictions so this is going to be interesting!

I am hoping...
That this week will flow, I have been having a hard time with my winter blues so I am trying to keep busy, although even that is laborsome.

I am hearing...
My daughter listen to a recorded live lesson from her cyberschool. It's math UGHHHH!!

Around the house...
Clean.....up......... It needs some tlc, I made a chore chart last week so I am hoping we will implement it this week or at least start.

One of my favorite things...
Somerset's Art journaling magazine

A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week:
A woman's town meeting about healthy food and stuff, I think it's going to be cool.
Finishing my Community Herbalist lesson.
My cousin is coming over Friday for dinner so I need to think about the menu.



Here is picture thought I am sharing...
I took this for the Blog camp 365 project in 2010, I set up the sea shells and wrote the message on the center shell.........

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